What I Was Thinking When Myrtle Died

When Myrtle died, I immediately thought of the possible causes for her death. I first thought about George maybe killing Myrtle, but then I realized that he would never do anything like that. Myrtle was the only person who George had, and George is not capable of even doing something like this. I then thought that maybe Gatsby had killed Myrtle, but he apparently in "love" with Daisy, and I don't think Daisy had any kind of grudge against Myrtle. After contemplating about this for a couple of minutes, I realized that Myrtle had to do this herself. I thought about her relationship with George, and this would have been one reason for her trying to kill herself. I knew that poor old George did very little to support him and his wife, and she probably got fed up with him. I know Myrtle, and she liked to be with exciting men, like me. Her death also affected me in a way. I began to think where I would go to find another woman if Daisy really did love Gatsby and not me. Of course, all of this traces back to my mortal enemy Gatsby. I hoped that Gatsby killed Myrtle because with Gatsby in jail, Daisy would come right back to me and not have to wait for dumb Gatsby to come back for her. Even before her death, I thought that Myrtle and I had something for each other. We were actually getting to know each other without George or even my own wife Daisy noticing. I know this may seem wrong, especially for Daisy, but she does not care for me as much as she used to, which has started to bother me. Myrtle actually did, and I thought she may make a great woman in my life.